The Itch I Cannot Scratch

Today has been a particularly strange day. Call me kooky or strange (you can call me both quite frankly and I really won't care!) but I've a feeling that something, somewhere just isn't right.

Could it be that the desert heat has finally gotten to me...

Maybe its the months of isolation away from family and friends...

Or it just might be true what the Getto Boys said in their song, "My Mind Is Playing Tricks On Me"...

Perhaps it's the weekly dose of Mefloquine finally getting to me...

No, I am going to trust my gut instinct on this - seeing that my gut instincts (in these cases anyhow) are seldom incorrect. If you've had any kind of clairvoyance, Deja vu or feeling of insecurity in the past and felt uneasy, like there was a warm fire under your rear-end, or a crocheting needle stuck between your eyes voodoo doll like then you know exactly what I am talking about. I've felt it many times before, and I've trusted my intuition in the past only to find myself correct and the lumbering hulk of a hunch was a dead-on correct bullseye of the feelings I had prior to verifying the incident.

I have tried to explain this to people before. I really am at a loss for words when it comes to explaining something purely singular in nature. Anyhow, when it comes to these feelings and hunches, the easiest way to explain is them is to compare the phenomenon with something that everyone is familiar with - my example is fire. You see, when you are close to the source of the fire, you can feel the heat radiating from it - you are warmed by it - mesmerized by it - you can see it. It is something tangible and real.

When someone close to me is in trouble - in pain - not feeling well - I can feel it. Like a fire, when you are close to the source, you can feel it - that is the best and easiest way for me to describe these feelings.

I checked the solunar tables...nope. Nothing out of the ordinary. First quarter and nothing going on there...

Spaceweather.com was checked and they said that geomagnetic and aurora activity is expected to increase due to a recent solar flare, but I don't think that solar outburst is the source of this dread feeling which gnaws at my wits...

Perhaps it my horoscope - my forecast for today said, "The Moon in your sign puts the focus on you and the deeper sides of your character today. Contact with others close to you is marked by a feeling of identification and understanding. You know instinctively what is going on and that helps you make the right decisions. "

That clears up the mystery - not! Clear as mud if you ask me. I've not made any life changing decisions other than waking up, taking a shower and getting breakfast and lunch today.

You see babe, there is a curious side to me - instead of asking questions and interviewing others, I am asking questions of the universe, myself and my immediate surroundings - problem is, not one of the questions has been answered. Which in turn, leads to this feeling that something, somewhere just isn't right.

(It's a vicious circle isn't it? - I think I got whiplash during that little escapade!)

Well anyhow - what ever it is scraping on the roof of my mouth and acting like the proverbial itch that cannot be scratched or relieved, it will make itself known here eventually. Almost everything has a tendency to come up to the surface...eventually.

So, I am going to leave for the moment. I apologize if this particular entry is not the most uplifting or poignantly loquacious but hopefully it will lead you to gather some insight into this shamble of a rant that sits before my blood-shot eyes. Don't get me wrong - I'm not in a bad mood. I'm just sort of frustrated at the fact I feel something, but don't know of its source and it is bugging me to no end.

I'm off to the chow hall for a small dinner in lieu of the Breast Cancer 5K run tomorrow morning - sleep and run for boobies!

Well, perhaps tomorrow won't be a total waste afterall...

(I tried to attach a photo to this entry - the stupid program won't let me...)